Tuesday, April 21, 2009
My end is my beginning.
I pride myself on my communication skills and yet, sometimes I’m about as clear as mud. I’m not quitting blogging! I merely took down my archives so that I could reclaim them, reorganize them, edit them, expound upon them and use them as the seeds and the fertilizer for several books. They will be life crafting books, humor books, autobiographical fictional books and perhaps a novel or two. When a person turns their blog into a book it’s called a blook. I own the copyrights to all of my material, as you can see when you look at the creative commons license on my side bar. I can do with it as I choose. It also follows that no one else can use any of my material without my express permission. It’s not the property of the internet merely because I posted it here. I did this in a public forum to help inspire other women to do the same. I did it to live out loud. I did it to be authentic. These posts were my little messages in bottles to the universe. That was my gift.
I now choose to take three years of writing and use it as I had originally intended, as the material I could mine for books. I told myself for years I couldn’t write a book because I’m too impatient, but this blog proved me wrong. By forcing myself to write every day for two years and to continue writing when inspired for a third, I found the self discipline I didn’t know I had. By doing it in a public forum, I couldn't cheat. It feels good to look though three years of musings and find that in and amongst them are some pretty good ideas. There’s also a lot of self indulgent drivel, which I shall pare away.
This is an ending and a beginning, as all endings are.
“And to make a beginning there must be an end. The end is where we start from.” T.S. Eliot
So don’t be ‘afeared’ my little cherry dumplings, Madgie isn’t going away! She’s just reinventing herself again. It’s what she does. I was feeling stuck, so I unstuck myself. It was harder than I thought it would be, but I think it was a very good idea. Perhaps I’ve broken some internet taboo...rules schmules...we all know I’m not so good at following the rules.