Seeking grace.
If you find it, please send it my way.
I
have been putting something off. But today I have to suck it up and
get it done. It's going to be expensive. It's frustrating. I'm
embarrassed. It's awkward. It makes me feel just a little bit like a failure...
...but it's surely not my fault and I have done all I can to navigate it over the past year.
I am not Super Woman and sometimes I simply have to admit that I need help.
I
hate asking for help. I really, really hate it. I will struggle with
something indefinitely before I'll admit I can't do it alone.
Some
things we can't do alone. Some things are beyond our control. Sometimes the only way to find grace is to admit that we need help.
There
is so much shame wrapped around being less than. I miss breathing. I
can't remember what it feels like to have an entire day without
coughing, wheezing or struggling for air.
I am not perfect, I am not super human, I am not a failure.
I can't fix this by myself.
Love
Margot
